得與失之間

一般人都說唱歌不管投射多少情感，最忌諱的應該就是情緒控制不住影響到聲音的表現，會顯得很不專業。

前年的CMA頒獎典禮上有一位歌手在台上哭得很慘，很辛苦的把這首歌唱完，很令人動容。


來自北卡的Kellie Pickler是American Idol第五季的參賽者，最後只拿到第六名，但她卻是那一屆最早

出唱片的歌手。媽媽兩歲的時候離開她，爸爸在他童年的時候一直都在坐牢，所以她是祖父母帶大的，她寫

「I wonder」來表達自己不一樣的童年。


歌詞裡頭在講說小時候就幻想著如果媽媽在身邊可以幫她挑衣服，幫她綁頭髮，像其他女孩一樣。我聽說加州

的天氣（他媽媽在加州）很好，如果你回來北卡會跟當初還是小女孩但是現在已經長大的我說些什麼。原諒是

很簡單的一個詞，但是做起來卻很困難，尤其當你受傷很深時。


最後一段也是影片中情緒的爆發點，她說到如果你真的回到了北卡，我已經不在那裡了，妳當初認識的小女孩，

現在已經在田納西了。（她住在田納西發展她的鄉村音樂事業，當天頒獎典禮也是在田納西。）


這是我近年看過最動人的現場演出了。



Sometimes I think about you.
Wonder if you're out there somewhere thinkin' about me.
And would you even recognize,
The woman that your little girl has grown up to be.
Cuz I look in the mirror and all I see,
Are your brown eyes looking back at me.
They're the only thing you ever gave to me at all.


Oh I hear the weather's nice in California. There's sunny skies as far as I can see.
If you ever come back home to Carolina.
I wonder what you'd say to me.

I think about how it ain't fair.
That you weren't there to braid my hair like mothers do.
You weren't around to cheer me on.
Help me dress for my high school prom like mothers do.
Did you think I didn't need you here.
To hold my hand, to dry my tears.
Did you even miss me through the years at all?


Oh I hear the weather's nice in California. There's sunny skies as far as I can see.
If you ever come back home to Carolina.
I wonder what you'd say to me.

Forgiveness.
Such a simple word.
But its so hard to do.
When you've been hurt.

Oh I hear the weather's nice in California.
And just in case you're wondering about me.
From now on I won't be in Carolina
Your little girl is off...
Your little girl is off...
Your little girl is off to Tennessee